April 2, 1996
1* First grade teacher's name: Ms. Gonzalez. Tristan and I were in the same class again that year and Ms. Gonzalez was a mean, cranky old... you get the picture
2* Last word you said: Tante
3* Last song you sang: Professional Widow - Tori Amos
4* Last person you hugged: Tante Sophie
5* Last thing you laughed at: I can't really remember the last time I laughed. I've been ensconced in France since my mother threw her conniption fit four years ago.
6* Last time you said I don’t remember: Ummmm.... I don't recall
7* Last time you cried: When I received Tristan's last letter telling me he was going into the service and he doesn't know when he'll be able to visit me next. It was the first letter I received in a year. Something's wrong. I don't know what it is, but I know something's going horribly wrong.
9* What color socks are you wearing: I don't like things on my feet if I don't have to... so, I'm barefoot.
10* What's under your bed: My shoes
11* What time did you wake up today: 3:45 a.m. I just couldn't sleep anymore not with the nightmares plaguing me.
12* Current taste: I have no appetite.
13* Current hair: Strawberry blonde waves that fall to my waste. I usually have it pulled up though 'cause it gets in the way.
14* Current Annoyance: Not knowing the nature behind Tristan's decision
18* Current worry: Tristan would never enter the service. Why is he doing it? Something's wrong and not knowing what it is worries me.
19* Current hate: Distance and uselessness.
20* Current favorite article of clothing: None
21* Favorite physical feature of the preferred sex: Who cares really.
22* Last CD that you listened to: Tori Amos' "Boys of Pele".
23* Favorite place to be: I don't have the desire to be anywhere in the world unless Tristan is there.
24* Least favorite place: And he's not here so I don't want to be here.
25* Time you wake up in the morning: In between 6 and 8 am. It really depends on what my plans are for that day.
26* If you could play an instrument, what would you play: The piano. My fingers are really stubby, but it's a beautiful instrument.... the universal language of music.
27* Favorite colors: The intermingling colors of blue and green. Turquoise, like his eyes.
28* Do you believe in an afterlife: I hope that maybe there is an afterlife
29* How tall are you: 5'2"
30* Current favorite word/saying: Tet toi
31* Favorite book: None at the moment.
32* Favorite season: Fall
33* One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: Daddy
35* Where do you want to go for college? In the U.S. Perhaps go to University of California, Riverside.
36* What is your career going to be like: I'm not sure.
37* How many kids do you want: None
*HAVE YOU EVER...*
39* Said "I love you" and meant it: No, because I've never really been given the opportunity to. Here I am at 17 going on 18, thinking I've fallen in love, but how can I say the words and mean them when there's thousands of miles between us, including the Atlantic.
40* Gotten in a fight with your dog/cat/bird/fish – Qu'est que ce?
41. Been to New York: Once but I wasn't impressed.
42* Been to Florida: Non, mais c'est d'accord.
43* Been to California: Was born there and missing it.
44* Been to Las Vegas: Yes, a couple times. But I was just passing through.
45* Been to Mexico: Once, and again, I wasn't impressed.
46* Been to China: Non, merci.
48* Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: Many times
52* Do you have a crush on someone: If you want to call it a crush, I suppose I'll let you.
53* What book are you reading now? "Paradise Wile"
54* Worst feeling in the world: Feeling like my hands are tied behind my back.
55* What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?: Tristan
56* How many rings before you answer: 2-3
57* Future daughter's name: Sophie, apres mon Tante Sophie
58* Future son's name: Tristan
59* Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: I sleep with my black cat nestled against me, but I wish I were laying in someone's arms and feeling loved.
60* If you could have any job you wanted: A writer? Maybe.
61* Wish were here: Tristan
62* College plans: I would really like to at least get a Masters in something.
63* Piercings: Just my ears, now with two holes in each.
*THE EXTRA STUFF*
64* Do you do drugs: Nope.
65* Do you drink: I do occasionally. It helps drown out the intensity of my emotions.
67* What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use: Garnier Fructose
68* What are you most scared of: Failure and Uselessness
69* What clothes do you sleep in: T-shirt and sweats or shorts.
70* Who is the last person that called you: Sasha
71* Where do you want to get married: I don't think I'll ever be getting married.
72* If you could change anything about yourself what would that be: Having a good intuition?
73* Who do you really hate: Just hypocrites in general
74* Been In Love: Perhaps this will be my one and only time, because I don't want to go through this misery again.
75* Are you timely or always late: Often late.
76* Do you have a job: Non.
77* Do you like being around people: Non.
78* Best feeling in the world: None
79* Are you for world peace: Who cares?
80* Are you a health freak: Non.
81* Do you have a "Type" of person you always go after: None
82* Do you want someone you don't have? Oui
83* Are you lonely right now: Oui, very much so.
*IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...*
87* Cried: Oui
88* Bought Something: Non
89* Gotten Sick: Non
90* Sang: Oui
91* Said I Love You: Non
92* Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them: Oui
93* Met Someone: Non
94* Moved On: Non
95* Talked To Someone: Oui
96* Had A Serious Talk: Non
97* Missed Someone: Oui
98* Hugged Someone: Oui
99* Had intimate relations with someone: Non
100* Yelled at Someone: Oui
101* Dreamed About Someone You Can't Be With: Oui
84* Ever afraid you'll never get married: Afraid of marriage. Je suis desolee.
85* Do you want to get married: Never
86* Do you want kids? Non
16* Current longing: Please just.....
17* Current desktop background: End it.
